Madly in love with my Husband Adam and proud Mama to our son Brodie James Basil & our rainbow, Ari Rupert. Here you will find me chasing happiness & surviving life after Baby loss.


Thanks for stopping by.



Mrs Carrick x



Monday, 30 April 2018

Me & Mine 2018; April 2018






This months photos were taken at a National Trust which has quickly become one of my favourites!

Sunday, 29 April 2018

I don't want your baby. I just want mine




Since losing our girls a lot of people around us have fallen pregnant and had healthy babies. Of course, thats life. People aren't going to stop having children just because I lost mine but I would be lying if I said it doesn't hurt.

Saturday, 7 April 2018

Tommy's Fundraising; Our Story



In May 2016 we got married, it was the perfect day and everything we dreamed of. After the wedding we decided we wanted to make our little boy Brodie a big brother and expand our family. Never in a million years did I think we would have the struggles we have experienced over the past two years. 

Tuesday, 3 April 2018

I can't be fixed.





This is my story in brief. In June 2015 I had my first born child Brodie, In May 2016 I married my childhood sweetheart. In June 2016 I fell pregnant with our honeymoon baby, In August 2016 I miscarried at 9 weeks. In November 2016 I fell pregnant again. In February 2017 I gave birth to our first born baby girl at 18 weeks, at home. In my bathroom. In May 2017 I fell pregnant again. In September 2017 I gave birth to our second born baby girl, again at 18 weeks. I nearly died. It was traumatic for my family and myself. In January 2018 I unexpectedly fell pregnant. In March 2018 I miscarried again at 10 weeks.

Monday, 2 April 2018

Tommys Fundraising; Turning baby loss into something positive....







As you may know, we have lost 4 babies over the past year and a half. Two early miscarriages and two baby girls born too soon at 18 weeks. Tommy's is a charity which are committed to funding medical research into the causes of miscarriage, stillbirth and premature birth.