Madly in love with my Husband Adam and proud Mama to our son Brodie James Basil & our rainbow, Ari Rupert. Here you will find me chasing happiness & surviving life after Baby loss.

Thanks for stopping by.

Mrs Carrick x

Tuesday, 20 November 2018

One year on...

Saturday, 17 November 2018

OH BOY....

For those who don't already know I am super excited to announce that we are expecting another little baby boy next year.

Saturday, 3 November 2018

Pregnancy After loss Q&A....

After announcing our news I had a lot of messages asking if I have had any treatment been on medication etc etc so I decided to do a quick Q and A blog post. Lots of the questions were similar so I have combined them. I hope this helps!

Monday, 29 October 2018

After the Storm....

So it turns out I've been keeping a super exciting and super hugeeeee secret and I am so happy to finally shout it from the roof tops!

Thursday, 2 August 2018

Family Photoshoot with Florence Berry Photography

Last year we were lucky enough to win a photoshoot with the lovely Flo at Florence Berry Photography. I shared lots of pictures of our Autumnal shoot which you can see here. 

For the past two years we have always had a photoshoot for Brodie in June to mark his Birthday. This year, June was a pretty hectic month and decided instead of organising a shoot for Brodie we would organise a family photo shoot instead. (Mainly because Flo always captures the best images) 

Wednesday, 25 July 2018

Tommy's Fundraising; FUN DAY


Where to start?

I am blown away by all those who came together to support me on my wild adventure of organising this fun day ! It was an incredible day but most importantly we raised funds and awareness for Tommys!

Fundraising; Random Acts of Kindness

Hello! You may be interested in having a random act of kindness bag made up in memory of your precious baby OR you may be someone who has stumbled across one and are after more information. Either way, welcome to my blog!

Tuesday, 10 July 2018

Tommys - #TogetherForChange

Baby loss. A subject no one wants to talk about, a subject so many try to avoid, a subject so many pretend doesn't exist.

Unless you are someone who has unfortunately experienced baby loss. Unless you are one of those 1 in 4.

Over the past two years that someone has been me.

Wednesday, 6 June 2018


Lost. Lost is probably a good word to describe how I feel at the moment. So many thoughts and feelings buzzing around which make no sense. No better place to let them all out than a rambling blog post right?

Thursday, 31 May 2018

Me & Mine; May 2018

This months Me and Mine photos were taken on our second wedding anniversary in Cyprus. We had dinner whilst the sun went down and was just perfect! There wasn't a cloud in the sky and being someone who absolutely loves a sunset I couldn't have asked for anything more, especially on our anniversary! 

Wednesday, 30 May 2018

Fundraising Event; Raffle Prizes

For all those who don't follow my event page on Facebook I thought it would be best to share all the amazing Raffle Prizes I have been gifted on here.

Monday, 14 May 2018

An Open letter to my Husband on our second Wedding anniversary

Two years....

Two years since I walked down the aisle to find you greeting me with tears. I couldn't wait a single minute longer to become your Wife. I would have ran down that aisle if Brodie wasn't so cute toddling his way down!

Monday, 30 April 2018

Me & Mine 2018; April 2018

This months photos were taken at a National Trust which has quickly become one of my favourites!

Sunday, 29 April 2018

I don't want your baby. I just want mine

Since losing our girls a lot of people around us have fallen pregnant and had healthy babies. Of course, thats life. People aren't going to stop having children just because I lost mine but I would be lying if I said it doesn't hurt.

Saturday, 7 April 2018

Tommy's Fundraising; Our Story

In May 2016 we got married, it was the perfect day and everything we dreamed of. After the wedding we decided we wanted to make our little boy Brodie a big brother and expand our family. Never in a million years did I think we would have the struggles we have experienced over the past two years. 

Tuesday, 3 April 2018

I can't be fixed.

This is my story in brief. In June 2015 I had my first born child Brodie, In May 2016 I married my childhood sweetheart. In June 2016 I fell pregnant with our honeymoon baby, In August 2016 I miscarried at 9 weeks. In November 2016 I fell pregnant again. In February 2017 I gave birth to our first born baby girl at 18 weeks, at home. In my bathroom. In May 2017 I fell pregnant again. In September 2017 I gave birth to our second born baby girl, again at 18 weeks. I nearly died. It was traumatic for my family and myself. In January 2018 I unexpectedly fell pregnant. In March 2018 I miscarried again at 10 weeks.

Monday, 2 April 2018

Tommys Fundraising; Turning baby loss into something positive....

As you may know, we have lost 4 babies over the past year and a half. Two early miscarriages and two baby girls born too soon at 18 weeks. Tommy's is a charity which are committed to funding medical research into the causes of miscarriage, stillbirth and premature birth.

Saturday, 31 March 2018

Me & Mine; March 2018

Wednesday, 28 March 2018

Spring, Sea & Sailor.

Spring has finally arrived. The days are beginning to feel warmer, the trees are slowly starting to blossom and the evenings are lighter. The only thing missing? Sunshine!

Friday, 23 March 2018

Im just not ready....

I’m just not ready. 

I’m just not ready to watch you grow up any more. I’m not ready to wave goodbye to you at the nursery door...

Tuesday, 20 March 2018

My Photo Diary.

A collection of my favourite photos taken this year!

Sunday, 4 March 2018


I don't have much to say on this subject right now. But Im sharing my journey and its only fair I stick with it.

#4 is all I have to say.

Sunday, 25 February 2018

Me & Mine February 2018

This months Me & Mine photos were taken on a beautiful sunny weekend away in the New Forest. You may find that a lot of my photos will be taken in the forest as we are super lucky to call it our second home and have somewhere we can escape to whenever we want.

Sunday, 4 February 2018

Our Ski trip - January 2018

I have always been a lover for an all inclusive, hot, summer holiday. Before Brodie Adam & I would holiday abroad somewhere warm at least 3 times a year. Even with Brodie we have managed a holiday to Mauritius, Cyprus and Crete. We vowed that having children would not stop us holidaying and travelling!

Wednesday, 31 January 2018

Me & Mine; January 2018

This year I am determined to document more of my pictures and share them. This link seems like the perfect way and I cannot wait to see how our family changes through the different seasons!

January's pictures were of course taken on our amazing Ski holiday to Valmorel! I took so many gorgeous family photos that will certainly be getting framed! Skiing really is the most perfect, active family holiday and we all had so much fun!

Thursday, 4 January 2018

2017; the year I survived....

I did it! I survived the heartbreaking and most devastating year of my life. 2017 is done and I have made it into 2018.... what an achievement on my behalf!

Monday, 1 January 2018

Chasing happiness

There's so much I wish I could change about my life right now. It feels like one uphill battle but I have to be strong. I have to be happy for my baby boy.