Madly in love with my Husband Adam and proud Mama to our son Brodie James Basil & our rainbow, Ari Rupert. Here you will find me chasing happiness & surviving life after Baby loss.

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Mrs Carrick x

Monday, 31 July 2017


We are over the moon, although extremely anxious to announce that we are expecting our Rainbow Baby, due February 2018. 

Pregnancy after loss is a whole new struggle and Im writing this down in a mad rush whilst packing for our Cornish adventure to St Ives tomorrow. Im not sure when this post will go live, or if it ever will but I wanted to share my thoughts and feelings having finally reached 12 weeks.

The first trimester has been a struggle, both physically and emotionally. I have been feeling really sick and nauseas as well as extremely worried and anxious! Now we are past the first milestone of 12 weeks, I am beginning to feel a little more excited, a feeling I haven't yet felt this pregnancy.

Brodie is delighted that mummy is having another baby, the way he kisses my belly is an incredible feeling. Last night, before Mr C took him off to bed he said 'night night mummy, night night baby' and kissed the baby goodnight. I welled up with tears of happiness. All we have wanted, almost since the moment he was born is to make him a big brother and finally those dreams may be coming true.

Im not sure how much of this pregnancy I will document or share. Im hoping once we reach the next milestone of 18 weeks +3 I will begin to feel calmer and able to enjoy being pregnant. Who knows, with all the stress this may just be my last time.

Despite having six scans, it still doesn't feel real and Im not sure its hit me that I am actually growing another baby.  A baby we will hopefully get to keep!

A 'rainbow baby' is a baby that is born following a miscarriage, stillbirth, neonatal or infant loss. In the real world, a beautiful and bright rainbow follows a storm and gives hope of things getting better. The rainbow is more appreciated having just experienced the storm in comparison.' Kicks Count

Thank you for reading
Mrs Carrick x


Angel Carrick, Born September the 3rd 2017 at 20:26pm
Another baby too beautiful for earth.

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